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°Have you ever cried your eyes out until all the tears in this world have dried, and yet the sourness in your heart still hasn't gone? That's when the person causing you the pain is the only one you ever loved.
°If a tear fell from my eyes each time I thought of you, I would have a puddle of fallen wishes.
°My biggest fear is never loving anyone again the way I loved you.
°If I could control my heart, I would stop it from falling in love with you.°
Yea, so last night I wrote a really long letter to Dave who's up at camp for the whole freakin' summer. I told him all about Europe and all about everything that's going on down here. All my drama and all. I told him he he needs to get his ass down here soon cuz it's not the same without him. The letter turned out to be one piece of looseleaf filled on both sides, and I write REALLY small. Poor guy is gonna get sick of my letters lol. But Katie has written him 8 so I think 1 so far is doing okay lol. I don't think I could beat her if I tried. lol, you're on, Katie! jk jk. I miss him! =( No one to call when I'm feeling down. Man, this is gonna be a long summer!
My stepdad has to go back in the hospital tomorrow. Anyone getting sick of this?? *raises hand* Yea, he has to have minor surgery tomorrow which means just an overnight stay. But yea, pray for him none the same. I don't even really know what they're doing, but ya know...I lack any medical knowledge whatsoever lol. Even if my mom IS in the medical field...NOT like mother like daughter in this case lol.
Better news, though. One of my friends met some chick in the vocal business and she's gonna get some studio time to make a demo. Well, she wants me to do the demo with her. So we'd both be singing on it. We'd each have one solo fast song and solo slow song and then one fast song and one slow song together. I said sure. Soooo me and my friend are gonna make a demo! WOO! Seeing singing is my life, this is good for me. It's not gonna happen for awhile, but still. And next summer we're going to NYC together for two weeks and we're gonna "music hunt" while we're there. Yea, maybe my career will take off after all! *biiig grin*
Well, yea that's it. Lata.
.x. 1 MINUTE AGO: I read what Meghann IMed me
.x. 1 DAY AGO: I wrote Dave a letter getting everything off my chest
.x. 1 WEEK AGO: I was in Europe
.x. 1 YEAR AGO: I was hanging with my friends and boyfriend
.x. I HURT: my heart by being a smart one and killing him inside
.x. I LOVE: him
.x. I HATE: him (what an oxymoron...moron, yep that's me!)
.x. I FEAR: that I'll never be okay
.x. I HOPE: we become friends someday...that's all I really want
.x. I FEEL: to music every chance I get
.x. I HIDE: when I cry
.x. I DRIVE: people crazy
.x. I PLAY: keyboard and guitar
.x. I MISS: love and Dave
.x. I LEARNED: that you can really fuck up your life when you make one little mistake
.x. I KNOW: that I ruined my own life, it's not his fault at all
.x. I NEED: to get out of here
.x. I THINK: too much
1. Name: Kati
2. Sex: female
3. Age: 16
4. Heigth: 5'8"
5. Weight: like I'd really tell you
6. Sign: Taurus
7. Location: St. Clair Shores, MI
8. School: Regina High School
9. Grade: 11th
10. Shy: hardly ever
11. Outgoing: very
12. Cute: kinda/sorta/sure
13. Hott: haha no
14. Beautiful: no, not really
15. Ugly: at times I feel it
16. Loveable: I think so...others seem to disagree
17. Sensative: extremely
18. Nerdy: no
19. Geeky: no
20. Playa: no
21. Playa Hater: only when they hurt people
22. Tall: I'm average
23. Short: see above
24. Only Child: yes
25. Parents Names: Mary Anne and James (stepdad-Dave)
26. Do you get along with them? usually
27. Siblings (Name, Sex, Age)? steps: Kristen (30) and Tom (33)-halfs: Sharon and some boy...don't know ages
28. Do you get along with them? my steps yes...don't know the others one
29. Pets (kind, name)? dog-Molly, cat-Punkin, bird-Larry
30. Best friend(s): Dave
31. Why are they your best friend(s)? he has always been there for me, no matter what.
32. Good friends: there's a ton of them
33. Best Guy Friend(s): Dave, Brent, Tom, etc.
34. Best Girl Friend(s): Stef, Becky, Jackie, Jill, Megan, etc.
Which One of your friends are:
35. Nicest: Dave
36. Meanest: I don't have mean friends
37. Funniest: Megan B. and Brent
38. Loudest: Megan B. lol
39. Quietest: Jackie
40. Most Shy: Jackie
41. Most Outgoing: Stef
42. Tallest: Greg
43. Shortest: Katie
44. Craziest: like all of my friends lol
45. Kinkiest: Katie!
46. Horniest: see above lol
47. Most b/fs, g/fs, crushes: hmmm...probably me lol
48. Dumbest/Blondest: Jill...but I love her!
49. Biggest Playa: Brent, but it's all good
50. Shortest Temper: hmmm...probably Stef
51. Longest Temper: Bernie
52. Most Perfect: no one is perfect
53. Most Insecure: Megan
54. Best Sense of Humor: Brent
55. Coolest Car: Brent all the way! cruiser car! lol
56. Best House: Jill
57. Sweetest: all of my friends
58. Most Trusting: Dave
59. Most Honest: Dave
60. Gives Best Advice: Dave, Stef, Jackie, and Jill
61. Trust the Most: Dave
62. Have you been kissed? yes
63. How far have you gone? a good girl never tells, but seeing I'm not a good girl...lol jk, I'm still not telling you!
64. Are you a Virgin? wouldn't you like to know!
65. Have you been to 1st/2nd/3rd or 4th base? *whistles*
66. Do you even know what the bases are? ummm yea since I was like FOUR!
67. Do you have a bf/gf? lol I like Ashley's answers (cuz I stole this from her) she has :-X lol I like!
68. How long have you been going out? :-x
69. What is his/her name? :-x
70. Do you love them? it's too soon to tell, but ya never know
71. How far have you two gone? hahaha you'd really like to know, wouldn't you?!
72. Do you have a crush, if so how long did you like them? yes...I've liked them for a longass time
73. How long have you liked him/her? SAME QUESTION AS 72, DUMBFUCK!
74. Whats his/her name? they know
75. How much do you like them on a scale of 1 to 10? 10 times infinity
76. Food: Mexican and Chinese
77. Drink: cappucinos
78. Dessert: chocolate or ice cream
79. Sport: volleyball to play, hockey to watch
80. Team in that Sport: Red Wings
81. Player from that team: Yzerman or Shannahan
82. CD: Brent's N.E.R.D. CD that I still have...=D lol
83. Song: "Magic Stick" ~50 Cent and Lil' Kim
84. Music Video: "Fighter" ~Christina Aguilera
85. Singer: ummm I got several
86. Rapper: pretty much all of them out there...I love rap
87. Movie: That Thing You Do
88. Actor: Paul Walker
89. Actress: none
90. TV Show: Saturday Night Live
91. Character from that show: Jimmy Fallon! hell yea, babay!
92. Cartoon: Sponge Bob
93. Character from that show: Sponge Bob...duh
94. School: Lakeview...I shoulda gone there
95. Grade: senior year...not that I've had it yet but ya know lol
96. Animal(s): dolphin
97. Color(s): baby blue
98. Flower: daisy
99. Car: any convertable
100. Day: Saturday
101. Radio Station: 955
102. Channel: MTV
103. B/F, G/F: my fav bf? ha, I don't have one...Greg, I suppose
104. Friend At School: Steffers, but I love them all!
105. Boy Name(s): Christian
106. Girl Name(s): Desiree (des er ay)
107. Pet Name(s): Woofers...don't ask lol
This or That:
108. Car/Truck: car
109. Coke/Pepsi: Pepsi
110. Tall/Short: in the middle =)
111. Short Hair/Long Hair: medium like mine!
112. Pringles/Doritos: Pringles
113. Scary Movie/Romantic Movie: depends on my mood at the time
114. Dog/Cat: dog
115. Fish/Bird: fish
116. Shoes/Sandles: sandels
117. Love/Lust: love
118. Like/Crush: like
119. Food/Drink: drink
120. Email/Snail Mail: snail mail...it's more heartfelt
121. MSN/ICQ: MSN
122. Black/White: black
123. Blue/Red: blue
124. Orange/Green: green
125. Pink/Purple: pink
GUYS Only Section:
126.Short Hair/Long Hair:
135.Easy/Hard To Get:
GIRLS Only Section:
137.Short Hair/Long Hair: short
140.Boxers/Briefs: doesn't matter, as long as they end up on my floor *wink* lol jk
142.Cute/Pretty: cute...never EVER call a guy pretty...they'd probably shoot you lol
143.Brown Hair/Blonde Hair: blonde hair
144.Prep/Thugged Out/Skater/Goth: as long as he's himself, it doesn't matter
145.Easy/Hard To Get: in the middle
146.Kinky/Old Fashioned: mainly kinky, but a mix of the two
First Thing That Comes To Mind When You Hear:
147: Ugly: ewwww!!
148. Fat: pork fat...I have no idea why lol
149. Cute: awwww, how cute! *pinch cheek*
150. Hott: guys
151. Guys: stupidass motherfuckers
152. Girls: easily hurt
153. Fags: a certain person I can't stand right now
154. Lesbians: rainbows
155. Hard: oooo you so don't wanna know lol
156. Soft: a pillow
157. Wet: water
158. Watery: water...lol wow that was creative
159. Silver: pretty!
160. Gold: member
161. TV: is boring
162. Money: need more
163. School: ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
164. Work: kinda fun
165. Love: something I wish I had
166. Eat: fooooooooooooooooooood!!!
167. Drink: alcohol
168. Swallow: nasty thoughts thanks to ASHLEY lol
169. Suck: lol no comment
170. Blow: job
171. Inside: outside
172. Outside: HOT
173. Sex: hehehe ()=) me want right now...lol sorta kidding ;0)
174. Did This Survey Really Annoy You? no cuz I'm bored lol
175. Who Do You Hope Fills This Out? seeing it's my LJ, whoever steals it!
176. Do You Want More Questions? ummm no thanks
177. Are You Glad Your Done? not really cuz now I'm bored again lol
178. What Time Is It Now? 8:37 pm